Tuesday, October 10, 2006
sianz...i failed again....what happened to me these days?feel like crying but it just cant get out from my eyes....sianz...today not in a very good mood....sianz...can somebody cheer me up?just being my listener can do...feel like giving up le.....my fault??i didnt put in enuf effort?what exactly is enuf?very disappointed in myself.....
the world is full of ups and down,some can climb up the mountain smoothly and some cant,which am i?do i belong to the one who will forever not reach the top of the mountain?
| a simple day. 9:05 AM
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
am i doing the right or wrong things?
why does it have to end up like this?
is it my fault?
am i expect too much from myself and from others?
does things happened coz of me?
ah.......
getting so stress up,
wat to do?
what is she going to say to the rest?
will it make things worst or better?
| a simple day. 12:43 PM
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Monday, October 02, 2006
pract test today...i was veyr disappointed with myself.how can i have such a silly mistake???one single mistake and i failed...i can blame noone....i was there hoping for ETT intubation or suctioning..haiz..re test on next week...tuesday.well,a second attempt isnt something which is not expected for me but maybe i was hoping that i can do it smoothly on my first attempt...haiz...y am i hoping so much from myself??i am really trying my best to be a good in my pract and y cant i?everytime jus got to....am i slacking too much?where has i go wrong?haiz.....everyone said i can be a good nurse and i always there wondering am i?i wanna tell then thet i am but things have proven that i am not capable enough.maybe that is y i put so much hope on myself...looking at my results...i was there thinking,there are so many better grades students all ard,which hospital will wanna employ me?haiz....not good in this and that....jus too weak to stand up....too many competitors ard...
| a simple day. 12:19 PM
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