Sunday, August 27, 2006
what is true friends?
is there such thing as true friend?
why do i get so upset over such a small thing?
why do tears run down my cheers?
are you consider my true friend or jus friend?
it is for me to know and for you to find out.....
| a simple day. 11:12 PM
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Friday, August 25, 2006
i had a terrible heacache the day before.....slept quite early that day....the next day feeling better but still got a little dizzy so ended up didnt go school....stayed at home do some baking...well,the first time wasnt that successful so in the end,went to sun's house to use the oven...stayed at her house for quite long...on the way to her house,feel very uneasy....nausea....after getting off the bus,dizzy...so i stood a side to stabilise myself....the cake was a bit unsuccessful but still can eat la....the cookies was very nice..feel like eating more of it....haha...saliva dropping le....
today in school,nothing much....glad to know that ann and hannah ok le....today have a tutorial on oncology...haiz....really need to have lots of reading...there are lots of things that we dont know....haiz...i am starting to work soon....hope i can earn $ so that my parents wont be so 'sing ku'.got to go for class now...
| a simple day. 1:46 PM
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
it has been quite some time since i last update....the story of max ended...there are now brother and sister..it good to hear that coz at least not ending up to be enemy...today ann and hannah quarrel...haiz...but i think ok le....today i was late for class coz i overslept...but yesterday i slept quite early le..hmm...what happened?getting old le...after school,we celebrated john's birthday.it was a surprise birthday party..
yesterday,after school meet up with one of my pt...it has been such long time since i last met him in the hospital....he become fatter le...wahaha....
| a simple day. 5:00 PM
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Monday, August 21, 2006
yesterday whole day stayed at home doing something...my leg started to have a pain again...really hope it doesnt get worst..should i go mesotherapy again?haiz....hopefully it can get well soon...now at e lab...so many pp...the rest of the pp is at level 5...i scare there not enough space for 6 of us so i decided to jus grab a comp here in level 3.now then i know that there are actually 3 lec notes to HS3055.so much to cover and study...1) on ED 2)on elderly 3)on immunity..die lo...exams are jus a month away..i dun know if i can cope with it or not...i hope everythings goes fine and smooth.i must tell myself....no more supp paper for me...enough of it...jus jia you...
getting excited abt my one wk break...what am i going to do in that wk?work?most probably...i found out that a brand new bicycle cost $88 only...hmm...was thinking should i buy??very tempted to buy one but if buy,put where?another problem arise...haiz...if i shift,it will also be very troublesome.haiz...
next yr graduate le...hopefully everything is fine la...after PRCP,maybe i will go back brunei and have a break before really stepping into working world...once i start my working world,there will be no time for me to play or even go back to my home town to visit my grandma and family...this coming holiday,most likely i wont be going back brunei...wanna save $ and earn $ on my parents behalf.
| a simple day. 1:29 PM
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
happy birthday to ya ya....21 years old le....growth up le....welcome to the world of the adulthood....hehe...i got to apologised for making a move so fast...we really have things on....really sorry...i hope you enjoy yourself....
today went to suntec city and bought 2 M1 prepaid top up card...for only $40.UP is $56.got promotions on hp and other plans....other than that,i saw many roadshow like travel and wedding gown.wah...the wedding gown is very beautiful...and lots and lots of pp were queuing to buy the airticket to various palces like japan,korea,hong kong,etc....got cruises trip so more....wanted to go on cruises but no $$...i wan buy wedding to be in the cruises.....very romantic..hehe...haha...start to dream le.....my leg start have a little pain le....hope it wont get worst
| a simple day. 10:53 PM
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yesterday after tutorial,we help jessica,our mentor,to shift her stuff to another office...she shifted from four room flat to two room flat....wahaha....but it is a bit small...she threw away lots of things....there are things that she wans to keep jus there isnt any use so we asked her to jus threw it away....then she said ok ok la..throw lo....the whole scene was so cute....then suddenly we heard a person shouted'fire fire fire(gay like)'then we took a look at who is it...who know what...it was another lec....he is the MC of hs3032....mental health...bennard...he suddenly poop in and said 'i shouted fire fire fire,then you guys must respond to it'..then we kei siau jus respond to his 'fire alert'.wahaha....after shifting,jessica treated us dinner....for appreciation of thanks....then after that went to bugis walk walk...bought a sketch book.....suddenly feel like sketching.....
for these having exams these few wks,ganbatte.....
| a simple day. 12:58 PM
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
max is having problem...i wanna try my best to help him but i couldnt give much advises....coz i myself also have problem in this....are we too young to know what is love???well,what exactly is true love??it is an undescriable....let nature takes its course....though at times,there are many questions that we think of but is there a use in thinking all those ques that doesnt really have an answer???when the times come,it will come...whatever is yours will be yours.
max:feelings are in ourselves....no one can tell us what we actually wan except ourselves....jus follow our heart...hafta ask yourself,what exactly do you wan??breaking up is not the solution to everything....maybe what you two need is time...lets called it a cooling period....to cool down and let each other think for so time...it is very difficult to find someone who you can be with...must think carefully...i dun know what advise to give you but i jus wan you to think carefully....what you really wan...
maybe i dun really have the right to say all these things but as a da jie,i wan to see you happy and 'sing fu'.i dun wan you to end up like me....hope you understand.
| a simple day. 5:35 PM
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
today we presented on psyco pharmacology....presentation went quite ok la....coz in the presentation,they are lots of words that i dun know how to pronounced....so chim....i bet almost half the class dun understand and feel asleep...hehe...today supposed to end at 3 but end slightly later coz need to cover that topic that was to be covered on friday also...so friday no practical class....yeah...one more presentations to go.....which is the research method.....haiz.....we are doing on stress in ward nurses....i havent started to find any articles on it yet...later going to look for it...my leg got better than last two days but still got a little pain when i try to rotate my leg....recently nothing much happened...
| a simple day. 3:51 PM
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Monday, August 14, 2006
today took cab to school coz my legs was extremely painful...my mum said if you still have pain then take MC,dun go school la....but iwen to to school coz couldnt get MC and also got lab some more...i dun wanna do make up alone with other class....walking here and there very slow and pain..going to have one week break soon...so excited....my break starts from 28 aug till 3 aug.....very very excited....
| a simple day. 1:52 PM
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
friday after school went out with siew to orchard..looking for clothes...we went to far east.i tried on a dress...i was so tempted to buy coz it wasnt very expensive but in the end didnt buy coz i need to buy some other things as well...siew bought a top..it was quite nice....she was also looking for a rack...we were looking for it from orchard to cwp...she was so worried that seh cant find the rack coz she is desperately in need of it....when she finally found it at cwp she was so happy....after that we went to sakae sushi...we jus ate feew plates coz both of us werent that hungry.the most terrible part was so of the things that i ordered were sold out....sianz...waited for so long for my order....siew and i then took cab home coz she don wanna take train back...you know what???i heard from siew that the cab driver was from brunei too...
on sat,went to jmd...in the morning we practised traditional dance and then went to JAS for practised.at JAS,i was so super high coz get to dance lots of traditional dances.i learned quite a few new dances but it is not actually new to me.it is just that i forget how to dance le...hehe...toward the end of the practised at JAS,when we danced the 'Sakuran 2004',i sprained my leg...so painful..so i didnt get to dance it.the next song was cingay 2005...i still can bear with it so decided to dance along...after that i went to clementi to meet siew and sun for dinner...i was thinking whether to find 'tia ta' coz it will be very painful esp when they rub it....in the end i decided to look for one but couldnt find one.all was closed...sianz....so we had our dinner at sumo house....and chat there for quite long....
todya in the morning,went to see 'tia ta'at my house downstairs...wah...when she rub...very very painful...i tahan all the way....very painful....then she said need to go back again for follow up....ah.....y am i so careless???when so many bad things happened to me these days....one come after another....later going to do the hardcopy for my presentation next wed...
| a simple day. 12:53 PM
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Friday, August 11, 2006
another day of school....i miss a lec....coz had a terrible headache yesterday.i think its becoz i didnt eat my dinner..i ate some cookies and mamee monster for dinner...haiz..as usual i dun like to eat dinner alone....brendy dun feel like coming down to eat so in the end went to clementi find siew but i waited for abt an hr...i cant take it le so decided to go home without eating with her....went home then sleep..
today got few hrs break and i bought a tube again...haiz...nowadays buy lots of things...spend $$ again...actually wanted to buy the black one but as i thought i need to stop buying black colour shirt coz i have alots blck tops....then we go SHS level 5 for an exhibition....got lots of things....i weigh myself and measure my height....i get shorter le.....1.58...i thought i am at least 1.60...ah.....how come like that??as for my weigh i gain weight le....but it was better than before....when i first came singapore....nxt lec is 2pm then after that go orchard with siew....siew wanna buy new clothes....girls shopping......
| a simple day. 1:38 PM
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
sorry joanne...i am unable to join you yesterday...i really wish too....i am here to wish you happy birthday...one year older,one year prettier...dun always quarrel with GM....always quarrel not good....today actually feel going out but the longer i stayed at home,i dont feel like going out le..wahaha.....lazy...having a great time yesterday....glad that i am able to meet you....very happy...
| a simple day. 4:29 PM
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Monday, August 07, 2006
saturday after jmd,went out with sun to chinatown...she is looking for a formal wear...but then in the end....brendy and i bought some clothes also...hehe...i bought a necklace,earrings and a tube...i wore it on sunday.dinner we ate at chinatown street...nvr eat there before...very cool and romantic coz it was very windy that night.we ate quite alot of food...nearly cant finished.we ordered sambal stingray,salad 'you tiao',sweet and sour chicken and also kang kong.....sunday went to bugis....brendy wanna look for shoe...we ate 2 small and 1 big durian...very full....after that,i feel like vommitting but feels ok after burp a few times...later the night went K...i bought 2 earrings...oh no...nowadays i bought quite a few earrings...haiz....waste money again.today i got only 35min of lec...i tot there will be another lec at 2 but when i reached school,max told me that he is leaving at 1,then i knew thta there is only one lec for the day....sianz...got to go soon...meeting brendy.
| a simple day. 12:58 PM
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Friday, August 04, 2006
presentation are over.i finished everything by 3am and woke up at ard 7am....tired.very sleepy during lec...all the misunderstandings have settled...i admited that i am wrong also coz i shouldnt have be so stubborn...i hope that this kind of things wont happen again....things that you are not clear,you should not assume...asking is the way to clear out all this conflirt.next time dont assume,k?i am not the type that will bear grudges....life just goes on...lets work together as a team for this last year...
i know how to proritise my work...dun anyhow involve person which doesnt really involve in this....though he is also very impt to me but i know when to put him as the first prority.....
i know all of you are concern abt me.thanks...i will slowly adapt to it....give me more time.
| a simple day. 10:21 PM
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
today isnt a good day for me.....just very fuck up.....and pek chek.....i jus dun know how they do things...first like this and now like that...wat you wan???i already done my part and now need to re-do!!all my effort is wasted....WTF.....i really dun know wat you guys are thinking....everything last minute......you think last minute can finish ma???you told me information not enuf...i am ok with it but....do you think there is enuf time for everyone to present provided everyone's info is so long????watever la......
max,i think now the kkl doesnt exist anymore....sorry to disappoint you...i am jus only part of your group mate and that's it....i dun wanna cause much trouble....
life is sucks......
| a simple day. 2:30 PM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
yesterday was supposed to be our 8th month aniversary...but....though we have broken up but this day really mean alot to me...i dun know about you la....maybe you really do treat me as a friend le...these few days didnt get to see you...really miss you.yesterday morning had presentation....well,lec said we are not focus enough.she is very worried about us....we had a nice chat.after that supposed to go bugis with max,yan ni and ann but something happened to my shoe so in the end didnt join them...so i went cwp to do my shoe...very exp sia....so i was at cwp the whole time...while waiting for james to reply me....well,in the end,we didnt meet up coz he is going out with his parents...so ended up i watched 'now and forever' myself coz i dont feel like going home so early..brendy got dance practise in school.
the movie was very touching and it is worth watching it.i cried....wahaha....very touching...the guy is willing to do anything(things that he never do for any girl before)for the girl that he really love....there are many meaningful sentences that really touches me...like 'do know know how hard is it to pretend things that you know but you just cant tell that you know?' ,'the more i am with you,the more i love you,the more i wanna live',etc....i like the movie theme song also...the moral of the story is treasure every moment you have happily with your love ones,you will not know what will happen to him/her the next day.
waiting to watch 'lake house'with you...
today went for an hr of tutorial then no class le....now at e-plaza.it's been raining these few days....what happened to the weather these days?weird weird de....everyone got to take care....dun catch a cold....
i dun know why i can feel that there is a distance between me and the kkl member...it isnt the kkl i used to be in...what happened?i could be the cause of it...if i am the cause of it,i am sorry for all the unhappiness...i dun know how to tell you guys...maybe many things have changed.give me some time to get back to the my normal self...i maybe seems healthy today and weak the next moment,you will never know....you may just treat me as a friend....but there are few things that i wanna say to you,
dear...when i talked to you on the phone,the feeling is jus so different..i feel very happy and warm.i am happy jus to see you for jus a while....to me,youare the one i love but maybe to you...i am not...sometimes i really wonder lot of questions...few of the questions include do you treat me as a friend only or some special person?,how impt am i to you?,am i someone who you can or can not live without?are you happier when you are together with me or when we are jus friends?,etc....i really wanna wait for miracles to happen but i am afraid that it wont happen....i started to feel that you treated me just like any other friend...i am afraid that it is true.maybe i am too sensitive....
| a simple day. 12:46 PM
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