Tuesday, January 24, 2006
ytday got nag by my sis again...y am i so weak this time?while she is nagging,my eyes were wet...i was thinking when can she stop coz i am trying to hold my tears back.so after she stopped,i cried.cant she understand that it isnt that i dun wanna spend more time wif my family when they were here amth agao.it is jus that i haf attachment and was tired after attachment.usually pp will tend to be talk less when there are tired,isnt it?y do u tend to compare between me and her?it isnt that i dun wanna talk to u,jus that i scare words that i use will hurt u unknowingly...things that i tot of before,u ,may think that i nvr tot of it before.sometimes i do wish u can consider my feeling.y do i get so stress up?it is becoz i dun wanna disappoint the whole family...i wanna get good results...to achieve a good result isnt as easy as i tot it is.i got very disappointed when i got the 2nd attempt...i wanna try my very best to clear everything by the 1st attempt but i jus cant.everytime lab test,i always hafta take 2nd attempt.do u think i feel good to have that kind of result?am i stressing myself?i will tell u,i did...different pp have different ways of relaxing method...for u,it is to stay at home watch tv but for me,it isnt.for me,relaxing method is to go to a more peaceful place and relax my mind...when i am at home.i will stress myself to study.
thanks,dear fro been a good listener and always be there for me and there to cheer me up.don think too much la..i like the way u are.jus be urself...
| a simple day. 10:46 AM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
many things happened...in which i don wish to mention again...i dun know how to express myself...feel very lost.dun know where i stand....dun know what exactly i wan..many things were running through my mind...feel very confused..haha..maybe i tink too much...haiz....dun know what i am talking also.haha........
| a simple day. 12:54 PM
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Monday, January 09, 2006
maybe i did thing too much.maybe things wont be in this way if i didnt think so much.sometimes i jus don know what i am doing is right or wrong.i really don know am i making the right decision in expressing myself.many things can change in a day time but i know that no matter what happen we are still friends.sori if i said smth that hurt u...have i changed??maybe i did but i didnt realised...ann,if u need help i will be there for u.dun wori...we are still friends.whatever u dun udst,u can ask me.u will not be lonely coz u still have me and max.hehe....we will share wif u whatever we know...we jia you together.maybe all these happen is bcoz i think too much...
| a simple day. 1:13 PM
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Friday, January 06, 2006
i am actually looking foraward to go to school again coz got to see my friends esp the close ones like ann,joanne and yan ni.but the first day doesnt seems to go so wel coz it wasnt what i expected it to be.why i feel the distance in between me and ann?what happened between us?we seems to talk only a few words after whole day together.i feel so extra when i walked wif her in a group wif other friends.when i was talking to my dear abt this,i cried.i don know why.....maybe i still cant believe that that was the truth.nowadays i seldom talked to u(ann)coz i need time to accept the fact that we are jus two different world.give me some time to tink though what i actually wan to do.no matter what we are still friends.
yesterday was kinda surprised when i knew that dear went to nyp.before meeting him,hannah,max,yan ni.joanne and me went to amk to eat japanese food(sumo house).after that we went to cash converter.yan ni bought a camera for only $6.hannah and max went back school an hr before us coz they haf meeting.then the three of us shop at popular.on my way back,i met dear a while before going lab lesson.on my way to the lab class,i accidentally knock on someone's leg when i opened the door of the shopping arcade.i did say sori but i think she didnt hear it so in the end i think her friends scolded at me.haiz...forget abt it la.after lab,we(brendy,dear and i)went to bugis to haf our dinner...kfc again.actually wanted to got burger king but it was raining so end up at kfc.we went sim lim square after that coz dear wanted to buy a dvd drive.
today i missed my tutorial at 9am.i reached school at 10am then joanne asked me why did i missed my tutorial then i know that i missed it.i didnt see the timetable properly.later at the afternoon i lost my lanyard but in the end i found it coz when i went for my lecture at 5pm,kevin gave it to me.then i asked him how come its wif him then he said i dropped it.thank god it isnt lost coz if it is lost then i got to replace a new lanyard which coz $5 or more(i guess).what an unlucky day..later going to watch chinese orchester at school.amelia i performing....
sad to say that my presentation are coming up so i need to be sacrify my saturday morning to go for meeting.my presentations are at the end of the month and earky nxt mth...i need be more serious now coz this semenster is getting tougher.i got to tell myslef that i cant skip lecture...mus really jia u...
| a simple day. 6:57 PM
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
it has been a mth i didnt update d my blog.what happening last mth was i haf attachment for the whole mth and my parents came to singapore for their vacation.i feel bad coz i hardly find time to acc them.i miss them alot.i miss jmd too but i think i am lagging behind.starting this sem i got to really arrange my time.i really need to jia u in my work and jmd.i am happy to see my friends this semenster again coz i was so afraid that i will repeat my module...thank god.
to dear:thanks for making my christmas day and new yr eve so meaningful.thanks for being there for me all these time.time past real fast..in this one mth time,many many things happened.good and bad...what i concern abt now is present and future.noone know what will happen to us in the future but i know that u are really trying ur very best to make this realtionship stay long..i am glad to know that.thanks for everything...a song dedicate to u..thank god i found you(Mariah)I would give up everythingBefore I'd separate myself from youAfter so much sufferingI've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest timeSo cold insideAnd the hurt from the heart it would not subsideI felt like dyingUntil you saved my life(Chorus all)Thank God I found youI was lost without youMy every wish and every dreamSomehow became realityWhen you brought the sunlightCompleted my whole lifeI'm overwhelmed with gratitudeCause baby I'm so thankfulI found you(Joe)I would give you everythingThere's nothing in this world I wouldn't doTo ensure your happinessI'll cherish every part of youBecause without you beside me I can't surviveI don't wanna tryIf you're keeping me warm each and every nightI'll be all rightCause I need you in my life(Chorus - all)Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)I was lost without you (so lost without you)My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)Somehow became realityWhen you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)Completed my whole lifeI'm overwhelmed with gratitudeCause baby I'm so thankfulI found you-Bridge- (Mariah & Joe)See I was so desolateBefore you came to meLooking back I guess it showsthat we were destined to shineAfter the rain to appreciateAnd care for what we haveAnd I'd go through it all over againTo be able to feel this way(Chorus - all)Thank God I found youI was lost without you (lost without you baby)My every wish and every dreamSomehow became realityWhen you brought the sunlightCompleted my whole life (whole life)I'm overwhelmed with gratitudeSweet baby I'm so thankfulI found you(Chorus - all)Thank God I found youI was lost without youI'm overwhelmed with gratitudeMy baby I'm so thankfulI found you(Mariah)I'm overwhelmed with gratitudeMy baby I'm so thankful I found you
| a simple day. 10:37 AM
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