Tuesday, November 29, 2005
ystday supposely watched harry potter at ps at 7pm but in the end we watched at cine at 8.40pm.sori guys.sori for all the sudden change in location.sori....during the movie,i got frighten few times.y i got frighten so easily le?i used to be very calm watching exciting movies but don know what happened.no comments abt harry potter.i got a bit touched and frightened.so overall..hm...ok ba.the movie end at abt 11pm then we reached hm abt 12+.kinda nvr expect james will be joining us too.the more pp,the merrier..my nxt movie is chicken little but as i think maybe nxt wk or the wk after then watch coz i am bankrupt.i will nvr watch movie at wkends coz it is very expensive.unless pp treat me la...then different case.wahah....nxt wk vtp but nxt friday i supposely having mornign shift but due to exam in the morning,i nd to change shift in the afternoon but no one can change wif me coz most of the afternoon shift friends of mine will also be taking the exam in the morning.who can i change shift wif?time passes real fast coz dec already.last yr december i celebrated my christmas wif anna.as for this yr,most probably celebrated wif my parents.
thanks james for the chocolate.i am real touched.thanks for so understanding and considerating.i actually tot u will get angry but u didnt.
| a simple day. 1:01 PM
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Monday, November 28, 2005
the other days went clubbing wif jmd friends.i was having lots of fun.we went to wendy's house to rest a while before going to to jmd on sat morning.we slept for abt an hr and took cab to school.all the seniors look very tired.later in the evening when i reached home,i slept till the next day abt 5am then was lying on the bed and refused to wake up soo in the end sleep till abt 11.30am.lol...slep more than 12hrs.later i am going to remedial lesson at 4pm till 6pm then after that brendy,me,wj,kian hou and mei ling go to ps and watch harry potter.hope it will turn out to be nice...
my supp paper for hs2037 is on 9th dec.it is during my attachment.i think i am going to replace it on sat again.sianz...feeling a little unwell today.body feels very weak..shit...here it comes again.
| a simple day. 10:13 AM
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Friday, November 25, 2005
today results are out.it isnt wat i expected it to be.i expect to pass everything but in the end i got one failed.i failed my hs2037.i was so shocked when i knew it.it is really unbelievable.wat can i do?y do i did so badly this sem?is it becoz i stress myself too much till i got such a result?do i deserve such a results?i think i don coz i studied quite hard for my hs2037 and hs2082.why do i forever get a c+ in my bio?jus don understand.is nursing really wat i wan?i really don know.i am happy to help them but when it comes to study,i am so damn lousy.i am kinda unsatisfy wif my results.another things that cheer me up is today is my fional day of attachment.feeling so relax after 5 days of morning shift.i got my isp results.i passed,which means i can go vtp on dec.later i am going clubbing wif jmd and friends.1st time..i wonder how is it like.hmm...yesterday went to watched zathura.it was ok.very adventurous...last nite went home at abt 10+pm then did my case study.cant really slept coz i was thinking abt my results.hope i can pass my hs2037 supp paper.pray hard that u all pass every modules.
| a simple day. 5:06 PM
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Sunday, November 20, 2005
still haf another wk to go....time passes real fast.i hope i can pass this ISP then go for VTP wif my classmates.during this ISP,i meet two friends from diffrerent group.they are friendly.nxt wk i will be the only NYP student in the ward but the good thing is time passes real fast when there are lots of things to do.i met one ITE student too.nxt wk i aill be working wif her.now i am working on my case study...sianz..i hate doing case study coz need to do lots of research.i can go watch movie after my attachment.i wanna watch ZAthura......who wanna go watch wif me?
| a simple day. 12:08 PM
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
i really don know what she wants from me.she said she wont object me looking for a part time job.then i told her that i found a part time job and she is talking so much.what does she wans from me?sometimes i really don know whether did she treat me as her sis or not.she always said i didnt treat her as sis but i always did treat her as my sis.cant i have make my own decision in things i do?whatever happens,i bear the responsibilities.i jus hate to follow whatever they haf planned.this will makes me feel that i am forever a kid and cant make decision on my own.i understand that watever that she planned for me is for my good but i jus don like to things that i don like to do.y cant i choose to do things i like to do?everything is like organised for me,in which i hate it.if i really wanna do it,i will make the first move.it is no use if u keep on forcing me when i am not ready for it yet.i hate to compare with other pp.y does she like to compare between pp and me?y does she wanna compared within herself and me?i jus don like it.does tis shows that she is jeolous coz i got to study in singapore at my age?isnt she is the one who encourage my mum to let me study in singapore and now she is jeolous?i really don know what she wans from me.if i haf a choice,i will choose to work after sec 5 and all this wont haf happened.i don like arguement.i didnt argue wif her.i jus let her say whatever she likes to say.mouth is hers and i cant stop her from saying.i know whatever i say has no power coz i am still her sis.she wins...she wans me to talk more wif her so i did but sometimes words that i said are jus simple meaning but for her it is offensive...y??maybe thats one of the reason why i didnt talk much wif her...i scared i will say anything wrong again.i jus hafta bear wif it.after all,she is my sis.it is not use if we argue and end up to be enemy.to her,i know u are tired after work,u must also consider my feeling.don jus release the stress by nagging me.this will makes me haf low esteen on myself.word thats u said hurts me unknowingly.if i didnt treat u as a sis,i wont even care what u said and wont even mind.pls consider others feeling.i know u haf high confident level and high esteen but others don have.u cant force pp to be the same like u.wat u think ismt wat other pp think.i jus wan a simple life,where i can find peace.hope u can understand(i kno u will not see this.i jus wanna express what is in my mind).
| a simple day. 12:47 PM
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
everything started to change slowly.i realised that i need to polish my english.my english is becoming weaker and weaker.yesterday i went to school to look for mentor and one of the lecturer.i got scored once i got into her room.from there then i know that my english is sucks...well,i don blame her for scolding me.i can understand that she jus wan be to improve more on my english and be more responsible in things i do.i can say that i need to talk mpre in english than in chinese.after that i went to look for my mentor.i went to tell her that i passed my retest and then she gave my one coloured pen.at first she wanted to give me a bookmark but she couldnt find it so in the end give me a pen.wat a nice mentor...after looking for mentor,i stayed at school library waiting for the time to go cca.cca started at 6pm.long time nvr go cca due to exams and sick.later at the evening,cca started and i feel there is alot of difference.y?is it becoz i nvr go for such a long time and i miss out a lot or is it becoz i am the one who changed?usually i am more hyper and talkative but yesterday was different.i didnt talk much to them.i cant find any conversation talk to them.i feel lost and like don know what's happening.where is my enthusiamsm?but i am happy that danny and shiang ming still come back to teach us(though there graduated).i learned new dance steps yesterday...long time nvr dance.
on the way home,james call me up and we chat a while.he said he called jus to ask me what is the cause of headache coz he was having a bad heachache.sometimes i think he is cute.not long after i reached home,my sis came back.she show attitude again.i don really bother.the day before i got lectured by her.brendy also cant take it(she was trying to sleep).
later i am going to class outing.long time nvr join them for outing.my last outing wif them was at sentosa.we haf a lot of fun tat time.
tml going steamboat.i wonder who is going other than me,brendy,julian and wen jun.so sad siew and s.thin cant go coz they will be having their exams starting next wk.wish them all the best and good luck.ganbatte!!!other than them,those of my friends studying in ntu and nus,good luck too.
i will continue wif my ice cream job this sat and nxt wk.if the lecturere didnt schedule me to go for attachment next wk,i will be working or the whole of nxt wk except wednesday.if she scheduled me on the 21th of nov.i will be on attachment for 6wks in nuh...yeah...can go attachment again.hopefully results will be out nxt week...i started to wori abt my results.hope this time i can aim at least more B'c than C's.
| a simple day. 12:52 PM
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Monday, November 07, 2005
i am supposely at brunei now but unfortunately i got to went back to singapore to take the retest today.why???when i abt to depart yesterday,i was so touched coz few of my good friends send me off.i nvr expect them to be there.so touched.another unexpected is i met one of my smss senior at the flight.at first i cant recognise him until i saw his side view.today kinda happy coz the retest today was kinda easy and the practical went on smoothly.i didnt touch my book since last mth.yesterday jus flip through coiz no mood to study.i was talking on the phone till abt 12.30am.i enjoyed talking to him.though we talked crap but still enjoy la...hmm....while talking,i watched i haf adate wif the vampire part3.it is getting more and more excited.tomorrow is my mama bday.happy birthday...i feel bad coz spending ur $flying back to and fro like that.i will study hard to eat more next time after i graduate.
| a simple day. 2:13 PM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
shuo bu shang wei shen me wo bian de hen zhu dong
ruo ai shang yi ge ren shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo
wo xiang da sheng xuan bu dui ni yi yi bu she
lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou
he bian de feng zai chui zhe tou fa piao dong
qian zhe ni de shou yi zhen mo ming gan dong
wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jia
yi qi kan zhe ri luo
yi zhi dao wo men dou shui zhao
Chorus:
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai
wo xiang dai ni qi dan che
wo xiang he ni kan bang qiu
xiang zhe yang mei dan you
chang zhe ge yi zhi zou
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai
ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai
ni kao zhe wo de jian bang
ni zai wo xiong kou shui zhao
xiang zhe yang de sheng huo
wo ai ni ni ai wo
xiang~~ jian! jian! dan! dan! ai!~~~~~
xiang~~ jian! jian! dan! dan! ai!~~~~~
| a simple day. 5:57 PM
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