Monday, February 28, 2005
why are u the one who light up my life?
why are u the one who give me hope?
why are u the one who darken my life?
why are u the one who make me cry?
why are u the one who make me suffer?
why are u hurting me again and again?
why are u the one who makes me hate u so much?
if i never knew you,all these wont happened.
if it isnt becoz i love you,all these wont happened.
if we never begin our relationship,all these also wont happened.
there is reasons behind why i did that to u.jus give me some time to cool down.hopefully i will be okay soon...
this wk is study break.i got to study my bio and psyco...i must score high in the test so that i can get a better grades during exam...
| a simple day. 10:22 AM
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Saturday, February 26, 2005
yesterday we celebrated our birthday at marina bay...before that after my lecture,siau ching,me and fio went to amk...on our way,my shoe broke...so sad.one of my toe got injured and bleed while looking for another pair of shoe...i bought myself a pair of shoe...after we reached marina bay,we waited for other pp then we ate steam boat and bbq...all of them seems to be enjoying themselves..i am glad to see that...i didnt wish to get any gifts from them coz it is a gift from god that i get to know all of them...after eating we went to arcade then catch the last train to go home...
| a simple day. 5:29 PM
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
these days many things happened....last few days i have been very moody and seems to get a lot of pressure from my sis so i decided to look for mentor to seek for help....i finally have the guts to look for her and i got counselled by her...i also cant believe that there is these days that i will look for her for counselling.she advised me on many things and make me realised that i should appreciated every single moment in singapore and also work hard for future and not for now...what she said was true also....if i have made my own decision to come here,y do i have to waste the time?now i am trying to work hard and try not to disappoint my parents.
abt today,i had my presentation and it was kinda sucessful..kinda satisfied with my overall performance though i am not at all ready....i jus said watever i know without even writing down wat i am going to say.today i acted as 'assistant mad scientist'and i spike up my hair..wah,cant imagine that,rite?..i then realised that it isnt bad spiking up too so i decided not wash it off till i go home.i looked very tomboyish today.then i told brendy that it is time to change my image...maybe i will start off my new image tomorrow...hehe..
during lecture,brendy went in to our lecture theatre...we were having bio..she seems to be very attentive oh...must learn from her but she said she doesnt understand anything coz too 'chim'.got many scientific terms...haha...after that smth happened.ann looked very angry and after the lecture she has a serious talk with someone.she was very angry.i was there at the other side with the reat of the pp,after their serious talk,ann said watever she thinks and feel.hope that she is getting better after telling out wat she feel.i was there comforting her too...hope her group will be more co-operative and wont led to any misunderstandin between their group.one should learn from their mistake and try not to make that mistake over and over again.insisting on doing things without any consideration of other pp's feeling will led to a lot of misunderstanding and hatred.pls do not always think that u are always right,you may be doing the wrong things and other pp is trying to correct it.if u willing to listen and make the adjustment,there will be lesser misunderstanding.
my birthday is coming...still got another wk to go...kinda excited coz 1st time spending my birthday with my singapore friend's....hope it will be a smooth one..birthday wish is to wish -_-that all my friends will have pass their common test and also not to forget mine too..haha...
| a simple day. 2:25 PM
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Monday, February 21, 2005
on the day,chingay was fun but i didnt have much energy to move abt and laugh a lot coz very tired....no matter wat,i am still enjoying myself.i can see that everyone is enjoying that day.everyone is so high....after the performances,when we were in the bus,we were like waving at the pp outside and also don know who start to sing the oldies songs....then when we were abt to reach jas,we sang along...then on the way to the room,xiang ming cant recognise which is fiona coz brendy's back view and fiona back view is the same...then we were like joking abt fiona's twin sis...haha..lolz....
the following day,i stayed at home whole day.at first planning to spend my afternoon atudying but in the end,we chit chat the whole afternoon talking abt......(cannot tell)..hehe....
now at library waiting for myy friends to have a rehearsal on my presentation on wednesday.m heart is not at the meeting...my heart is somewhere else....hehe...
| a simple day. 11:48 AM
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
today is chingay...i am not feeling so well...so i am not really looking for it...i tot of many many things these days,making myself so tired.firstly,about me and nn group...y is that,i feel like i am drifting away from them?am i the one who drift away?sometimes we hardly find time to sit together and have a proper lunch together..even when we have it isnt much convensation?y is it like that?our conversation is getting lesser and lesser...currently all of us(individual)is always busy with meeting and ica but y the rest get to get along?i really dont understand y.is my world and their world totally different?it is not that i don wan to join u guys for lunch or go out...it is that sometimes i really have no choice...i really wanted to join u guys going out but i really have no choice...
secondly,i feel lke scolding some1 but when i saw him,i became soft-hearted and kai bu liau kou.actually i hate the feeling of love and hate the same time.i have enough of that kind of feeling.do u know that those kind of feeling is very sing ku?whenever i want to let go,u make me don feel like letting go.y is it like that?i don know y i will bcome so crazy for u.i hate myself.....i tried to be tough in front of u in order to make u feel comfortable but as i think...am i trying to cheat myself or am i trying to avoid the reality that we can only be jus friends?y do u enter my life?i tried many methods in order to forget abt u but it doesnt seems to work...y?how i wish i can never c u again but i know it is impossible coz we are in the same cca...i hate u.i wish i can never know u and never fall in love with u so deeply.lastly,today will be a bad day for me...coz no mood.
| a simple day. 10:25 AM
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
today i woke up at 7am and i was almost late for my lab..after lab,i have my tutorial the follwed by lecture....whole morning didnt eat...so at around 12pm,i was looking for my friends to accompany me eat lunch but some of them said they had their lunch and some said having class....then after that i went and walk round the school on my own coz i dont know where and wat to eat so in the end i bought sandwiches...such a terrible days today..nearly cant wake up coz very sleepy...coz yesterday i think i sllep at abt 1+am listening to f93.3...ling zhi is going t change shift.she is nt going to tell the story and chat at 933 at night liau...so sad.i was happy for fio coz finally the elephant talked to her in a proper way yesterday....the day before yesterday was valntine's day,i went out with kian hou and we chat alot coz long time didnt c...i think our friendship is getting better coz last time,we didnt even talk much.both very paiseh paiseh....haha...i felt very confused nowadays coz thinking of things that i am not suppose to think.next wk is my lab assessment.i havent even study for it...hopefully i can stay calm during my lab exam.chingay is coming..i am looking forward for it...hehe...3more days to go...
lastly best of luck to all those who are having common test nxt wk.
| a simple day. 12:24 PM
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Monday, February 14, 2005
today is valentines' day...actually i am supposed to go out with cindy,prisca,selpie,anna and shiang ming but all of them cant make it...so sad..in the end i got to go out with kian hou(a friend of mine in sp).i am jus wondering where should we go later...hm.....yesterday nite i slept at abt 2pm to make the stars.i slept during bio lecture..hehe...but still got listen a bit la...i am happy today coz this is the 1st time pp give me smth for valentine...thanks to that special person.i never expect that...
back to chinese new year....
during the first day of cny,i went to my aunt house then go bugis temple...so many pp there pai pai...me and my younger sis went in first then wait for my parents and elder sis outside the temple.after that we went to home...
second day of new year,my elder sis friends came to our house and we did receive some ang pau from them coz her friends are all married.her friends come one after another.it was a busy day.on that day, i played cards with my sis bf...i lost in the game.he lost too...hehe...my father is the winner.hooray....later in the evening,i bring my parents to esplanade thinking that there is 'hua chuan'but in the end don have.so we jus go there walk walk lo...
third day,selphie,cindy,prisca and xm came over to my house.after that i went to cindy house and visit...her house was cool...so warm and so ....don know how to describe.later in the night ,after eating dinner,i played cards with my sis.
fourth day,send parents off...i went to jb to send my parents off...i always told my mum that i wanted to go back brunei...(in a joking manner).and u know wats her reply?her reply is wait till i win lottery..haha....lol.after sending my parents off...i went to wodlands and see the fair...the games are so exciting...so incredible...i wanted to ride on it but very expensive...haiz...next time lo.
yesterday,went to my sis friends house visit until 10.30pm then reach home.
this year i didnt ahve a chance to visit my friends house...sori ann and fio coz i couldnt attend ur house visit....hope u guys enjoy urself.
| a simple day. 1:10 PM
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
last few days i have been quite busy accompanyiing my parents to chinatown...so tiring and so many people..we were packed like sardine...haha...last night we went to chinatown again and then walked all the way to city hall...my leg became so weak.i slept until abt 12 pm...1st time slept until so late...well,this coming chinese new year,it is the same as my christmas wish...later ,after eating dinner,i will bring my parents to my aunt house and then go watch fireworks at chinatown...
this chinese new year,i don really have the excitement.don know y...i don know y i keep on thinking of smth and u always poop out from my mind...does this mean that i am still missing u?when i remembered wat u tell my b4(that really hurts),i choose to be angry with u but when i see u,the anger isnt there.i jus stay as nth has happened.y is there such a feeling?
okla...to prevent myself from thinking so much,i think i better stop here and wish everyone a happy chinese new year....
| a simple day. 1:52 PM
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