Monday, January 31, 2005
today i woke up at 6.30am....i was early today but joanne,ann and yan ni were late so i went to the lecture theatre myself..and i saw max.he sat in front so i jus join him lo coz no place to sit.actually i was planning to sit with fio but couldnt find her so jus sit with max la....i was very hungry when i am having my lab...so after lab,i straight away went to north canteen search for food and after i finished,i have my meeting at 1pm...then here the incident happen...when i was at the library,then i realised that i didnt take my file...my file is 'so called'very important to me coz all my research work is inside that file...i ran all the way to north canteen and look for it but i couldnt find...i totally have no mood for that ica meeting...after my practical,i went back and looked for it again but still couldnt find...i have to do all the research again....so sad...i dont know y today so bad luck....now i am doing my work again at the e-plaza while waiting for brendy to go chinatown later...
| a simple day. 4:51 PM
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
yesterday we were to celebrate mei ling's birthday.it was a lot of fun...we ate at 'her'restaurant and chit chat...i think we make a lot of noise...haha....hm....after eating,we planned to go home but we stopped by to play arcade....we played for one hours...i am so happy yesterday.jus don know y....it is jus like as if yesterday was my birthday...haha....i am very excited abt my coming birthday...ha...pp don forget oh...my present...jus kidding la.i don know y i can go so crazy for him...it is jus an automatic reaction...when i saw him,i will get very excited and will 'sa siau'.nowadays keep on thinking abt him...the more i want to forget abt him,the more i cant...haiz....he is jus too nice.to me,he is forever the way he is and i jus like the way he is.pp always told me not to think abt him anymore and find another one but i jus have no feeling toward the guys around me.haiz....i became more and more into him.sometimes i am very confused abt this matter coz i am still going for something which i know it is impossible.am i stupid?haha..i think i am.this is y pp always said love is blind.
today as i said,there is a presentation on hs1028.actually i am not as nervous as yesterday's presentation coz today's presentation is not graded.i jus read from the paper.today very tired coz yesterday went home quite late(abt 11pm).sleep at abt 12am..i am thinking when am i going to start doing my assignment coz i am very lazy to do + nowadays i will be home quite late.
| a simple day. 4:46 PM
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
today i had my hs1029presentation.i am supposed to meet the rest of the group member at 9am but i overslept so i reached school abt 9.30am...hehe...overall it was ok la..quite satisfy.actually the time is quite short so we tried to delay and push forward the time....today we will be having our theory singing grading and also jmd practise at 5pm but we have other plans today.haiz...don know how.i plan to go to singing grading but not for jmd coz it is all plan up.i really thought don have jmd...sori for not attending jmd.today,after my presentation,i went to north canteen with jo,yan ni,ann and sarita and i nearly fell coz the foor was slippery+i didnt waer my sports shoe.i wore a sandal.haiz...so many pp at that time...got a little paiseh....tml i will have another presentation on hs1028...so many presentation to be done this wk and also a last min assignment to be summited by end of this wk...jus wondering if i can finish it.
yesterday i have a mini practise with fio,brendy and mei ling.they dance until non stop.as for me,i sat down there coz no mood to dance.feel very tired....yesterday i jus knew that tml got singing grading.so sad....;(.brendy and fio create a new dance steps.it looked quite well..after that when we went to eat at mc,someoen from other table said 'gia gia gia'(which means go go go in hokkien)and fio,brendy and i looked back...i actually tot she was calling me..haiz...so paiseh...then after that we went home.kinda nervous coz tml i got presentation.
| a simple day. 1:44 PM
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Saturday, January 22, 2005
it has been such a long time i didnt update my blog....i have been busy with my ICA presentation and also last few days we were busy with our performance.i was very nervous coz first time performing on stage...i had a lot of fun today especially coz today was the last day...we took pic with the cosplay pp...and get to talk with them...also these days i really enjoy myself as all of us(jmd)get to interact....watmore can i say??hm...i really enjoy myself....though we kinda get scolded by dan but we learn from our mistake..we did our very best today....we learn from our mistake...though we didnt do as good but we did better than last two days.....everyone enjoy themselves today.i am glsd to see that...
about my own personal opinion,i think it was a good try for me to stand on stage to perform and i am quite satisfy with my own performance.i believe i can do better de...many things happen and make me realised that many things...i think i have changed but maybe it is jus my appearance ba...well,i dont know how to say...i really regret in certain things that i have done last time and now it isnt too late to wake up...at least now i know what i really wan and learn from my mistake..i wont repeat the same mistake again...sometimes i wish i can turn back time..(i wish u understand what i mean)...
| a simple day. 8:42 PM
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
yesterday i went to jmd...most pp look so weird,including myself.i totally have no mood and don even feel like smiling...but no choice la,for the sack of practising.don wori,i will 'smile' during the open house.later in the afternoon,i called up my parents and after talking to them,i feel much better but still moody la...very tiring also coz in the afternoon we got to go for chingay practise...i tried my very best to at least smile while dancing the chingay dance.later the evening,after chingay practise,i met my sis at clementi and went to her friend's house....at her house,i feel so comfortable and i finally found out y i am so moody...it was jus like a family reunion though they are not my parents...i feel very comfortable...my mood got better today...but very tired...
| a simple day. 4:21 PM
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
so sianz...today don feel like going to school..feeling so sleepy.i was late for my tutorial...now i have totally no mood to attend afternoon lecture coz there were somethings that were bothering me but cant figure out what is it...jus feeling very down today.nowadays i dont know y...i feel so 'no feeling'...i realised that i am not being myself.i smile less and became very focus on the things i do.is this what i want?am i happy with myself now?i have being very very busy with my research and all.i really feel very tired...in one whole week,i hardly find a day which i can have a nice sleep...all the time thinking of my studies and things that i need to do.i wonder how long can i stand for being 'jian qiang'.coz in most cases,when girls feel VERY upset,they will just cry out but i am not.tears doesnt run down my cheeks even though i feel like crying.i jus don know y.haiz...i think i need some time to cool down.
yesterday all of us(jmd cat b girls)try dancing with the yukata on...all of us look so cute.jus like siau mei mei,especially brendy with her hair tied up with two pony tails.among all the yukata,most of us like the red one.it is the most nicest among all.we are performing next week and most of us are waiting for it to come,including me.
| a simple day. 10:48 AM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
i fell sick starting last saturday...so stupid coz i tot it was only due to the weather changes that i kept on sneezing but in the end flu started...haiz...i hate being sick.
on monday,i have a meeting at sports lub..haha..that was my second meeting with them but i knew no one there so got a little sianz coz got only a few girls there...when i have meeting at the blk e,fio,mei ling and brendy were there waiting for me to join them(practising the chingay dance) but in the end(when i joined them),they were sorta tired already coz they waited for me until they finised dancing what they have learn in jmd...so sori....
on tuesday,we practised with chee ching.before practising with him,he waited for all of us for abt 2hrs coz our class ended at 6pm...poor thingy.after that,when we went up to blk e,me and anna were busying modifying some drawing which i need to be submit by friday...thanks anna and chee ching for giving me sugguestions...we end quite early coz anna wanted to go amk to buy sleeeveless white shirt.in the way to amk,there was some funny things happened...brendy got bullied by us again..haha..poor thingy...she said something which we keep on making jokes about it...about 9.30pm,all of us went home...
on wednesday(today),we will be wearing yukata...very curious.now finished lecture liaoz...bbut feel very uncomfortable coz feel like vomitting like that + sick again...but no choice la coz we got to practise for our open house thingy...even sick also can got to go practise...like xiang ming said,practise make prefect.so got to go practise!!!!
| a simple day. 1:57 PM
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Friday, January 07, 2005
finally started school le...we had our singing grading and i am very disapponted with myself coz i am not satisfied with the way i sang.maybe it is becoz i was too nervous and also maybe is becoz i think too much about my lyrics...well,its over.what is over,it is over and will never turn back.but i managed to pass la...still got theory test for singing...i think i cant pass coz i didnt even have any instrument at home to practise...nowadays,i don know what makes me change so much.i am like keep on thinking about my studies and did my tutorial.do i like the way i am now?i also don know coz i look very serious about my studies and also have quite less time for me to relax.i hope this will give me a good sign.this semenster i got a lot of things do like presentation,performance,etc..all come one after another.hopefully i got a better results as compared to last semenster.
| a simple day. 1:15 PM
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
we live in a totaly different world...it is jus like the fact that oil and water is jus not the same.i believed that things that really dont belong to you,it will not be yours no matter how hard you try to get it.well,i am very happy that u make things very clear to me..it is up to me whether i can take it or not.now i can say that i can take it coz starting from now on,i told myself not to think so much about relationship yet...now my focus is on my studies...relationship is not that important to me now.with good results,i can have a carrer but relationship cant...i finally understand le.though relationship can bring about happiness but that happiness wont last long at this age unless u really meet ur mr.right/miss right.things that have been said before can mean nothing to u but it mean alot to other pp.whatever it is....i got to start off with a brand new life.don worry so much...and don think so much.we are still friends...like i said,u got ur own world and i got mine.if this two world being force to be together,there will be not outcome.it is either one world gets corrupted or two world suffer.
| a simple day. 9:48 AM
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
yesterday was new year eve....it rained the whole day so i don really have the mood of new year and don feel like going out....later at the evening,we(brendy and meiling)met at orchard..mei ling brought a few friends of hers...very friendly also.after eating,we went to walk around looking around for clothes...hehe...girls are like that de...poor thing that coz one of mei ling's friend is a guy...he got to wait for us...feel very bad leaving him alone waiting so brendy and i decided talk to him...before we met fio at the mrt,we have a hard time looking for her coz her hp low batt and couldnt call her.we were jus like playing hide and seek...hm...ok...after that we went to cinelesure to check out the price of ktv but very expensive and also no rooms so we decided to walk around again...after mid-night then i got the new year feel coz we bought few bottles of the sprays and spray at other pp..haha...it was very fun...after that,when we were about to go find a place a settle down we got sprayed...and at that time,i was out of spray....so sad...the poor thing is brendy got sprayed the whole of her back by a gang of 'unknown teenage guys'.then i go pull brendy aside and let them spray me and not long after,they stopped coz they were also out of spray leh...we stayed awake until today's morning to catch the 1st train home....
my new year 2005 wishes;
1)to start on with a new life.
2)to get better results than last semenster.
3)to improve more in my dancing and singing.
i realised that no matter how bad i tried to become,i am still who i am.i am still the kind of person who 'jiang yi chi' and those kind of girl who likes to help pp...that's me.no one can change my personality....i am born to be that way....
it is of no use changing ur own attitude and personality becoz u are jus the way u are.u can change ur appearance but not ur personality.everyone has its own whole...in their own world,they have their own ways of doing it...and also they know wat they are doing.
| a simple day. 2:17 PM
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