Friday, November 26, 2004
today early morning,i kinda quarrel with my sis....i told her that i am not going home to eat with her today and she said y cannot have a proper meal with her.then after that,she said 'everytime when i am go home eat u arent at home...even when saturday i am off,u also go out whole day,u cant even have time to spare with me?'then i kept quiet..well,i am thinking when i am at home,u came home late and wants me to cook.after i prepared everything and then u said no nutrients and then buy ur own food...wat do u mean?wat exactly do u treat me?as ur maid?i am thinking wats the use of staying at home with u on saturday?i will only face the four walls...u wan me to study 24hrs?there is nth much we can do...i prefered doing something more meaningful and enjoyful..as for this morning,she rang me up and at that time was on my way to school for the remedial class..she said the same thing again...she said 'wat for go to school so early and y dont eat dinner at home'and so on....then i said,maybe it is becoz our timing not the same...i wan her to stop shooting me so i said OK OK,I EAT AT HOME THEN.then she said nvm already..wat exactly does she wan from me?i am thinking our relationship were so close last few days,is it truely from her heart or she jus wan to make use of me to help her do this and do that????y am i brought up in such a family background?i really cant stand her anymore...she always asked those questions that i dont know how to answer her...i know she nags me is for my own good but i know wat i am doing...but she really over-control wat i am doing...i become devil is it partially becoz of her?all these time,when anyone scolded me,i kept quite and nvr fight back..is it bcoz u think i can be bullied in this way?to me,quarreling is a way of time.it will only makes things worst...
oh...die,i havent study for my sociology yet...how am i going to study with such a mood?tomorrow grading..haiz...still got four more sets to think of.later i will be going swimming at school and also practising my dance....
| a simple day. 1:15 PM
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
today brendy suddenly received a msg from school.it is her results!!i was shocked and woke up straight away...i have been waiting for my results but didnt receive any sms from school coz i didnt sign up.haiz....about my results ah....it was not quite good.it is all C's and D's..the worst thing is i need to take supplimentary paper on Monday...i hate my sociology.i am not very satisfied with my results..though i knew that i will take supp paper for my socio but i didnt give up.i told myself,i can get at least a D..haiz...but in the end.....haiz.....don mention.....i don know i am suppose to be happy or sad...happy bcoz he passed his maths..happy for him.sad bcoz i got to retake...haiz...as for the grading on Saturday,i am not yet prepared.i dont feel like taking the grading coz i havent really prepared yet....i hope the grading can be postponed to some other day...how i wish i can get better results.....do i deserve such a results?haiz.....really no mood.....how can i improve my socio?
after that day,i think i have changed a lot...i've changed to become bad girl...i can feel that it isnt myself...where has last time de gia gia gone to?will the devil took over the angel?i feel like i am a devil now...i slowly changed into violence...the way i speak also different le....y?is it becoz of influence or is it bcoz i still cant except the fact?i wish the angel will be back again.
| a simple day. 1:35 PM
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
i went back jmd on monday...we were too early.nobody was there.at first we planned to have breakfast with fiona but she overslept...haiz..later that afternoon we went to ang mo kio to know the price of hamster and fish...haiz.i am now planning to either buy fish or hamster...dont know which 1 to choose.
as for tuesday,fio and anna came to my house for practising then after that we went to orchard to meet meiling..haha..we were so 'siaw'..orchard is really well decorated.it looks really beautiful especially at night...i really enjoy myself yesterday nite...but i went home quite late and in the end i had a quarrel with my sis,making my mood very down.whenever i had a quarrel with her,i am sure the 1 who surrender 1st coz i dont like quarrel and making up trouble.it will makes things worst.
will our story continue?
i wish it can go on but i know it is impossible,
jus like the fact that oil cannot be mix with water,
coffee is sweet when added with sugar but bitter when it is not,
an ugly duckling is all along,
until one day an ugly duckling turns into a pretty swam.
as for today,at first i planned to stay at home thinking of the dance step but in the end,i ended up to be in chinatown blogging.haha....
| a simple day. 2:22 PM
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
after two weeks in brunei,i realised that i think of him almost everyday...i dont feel like going back to singapore coz i am very tired to faced all those stress and also dont want to see him..but i have no choice,i got to go back to singapore to have my grading...i found out that i am really hurt..i felt that i am treated like a fool.i want to choose to hate him but i cant do it coz i still like him...i know i am very stupid to waste my time on him.though i seems to be friends with him but i really wish that we have another chance...haha..very stupid,rite?i told myself i got to face the truth...the truth is out there..we got to faced it...
| a simple day. 11:40 AM
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
last few days i have been going out with all my friends at town area...yesterday i met my dearest ko ko(tze hong)...he treated me eat lunch at fratini restaurant...he told me that he isnt going to work in his company again..actually i already expected that to happen...other than that,my other ko ko(kok fatt)decided to quit his job too coz he wanted to study again...i also dont have any objection...all i want is he can be more serious in his studies once he have made this decision....as for my company,there have been a great changes....1stly,almost all the staff there are new.2ndly,it has renoviated....it is such a long time i didnt go back brunei...everything have changed..but i know one thing will never change,i.e,my friendship...now i am wondering how's jmd..i miss last wks session....i think i really need to practise it after i go back...
| a simple day. 4:51 PM
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Monday, November 08, 2004
i finally reached my home sweet home but i ghave being feeling not well these days....i have fever and flu...before that,my stomach was very pain....today finally got a chance to go online....i have been thinking of someone lately....i really miss him...i dont know if we have fate again but i know i really into him already....when i think of him,i can still feel my heart hurts....yesterday i found out something from my parents,i.e,i am actually hakka...not hokkien...after i knew it,my mood turns down...from that,i know that fate have made the decision for me...i keep on asking myself...should i still go for something that i know which is impossible???i know that to love someone takes a shorter time than to let go...it is all ming zong chu ding....
| a simple day. 10:22 AM
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Monday, November 01, 2004
today i was having my bio exam...the paper was quite ok ok la....i think i manage to pass la....i started to hate my bio lecturer coz watever he said will come out came out for mcq..but luckily,i did go through some of the topic that came out for essay....after exam i planned to go to amk so i asked NNgroup to accompany to go...at firsst we planned to go to eat at mos burger but ending up to eat at pizza hut....we ordered one set meal which consist of 2pizza(1big and 1 small),1jug of coke,side dishes and 4 mushroom soup...when the big pizza came after taking out 2slices,ann found that there is a hair inside the pizza...then we requested to change another new one...luckily the pp wiling to change...while waiting for the big pizza to come,ann suddenly wanted to conclude one thing so we listen to her attentively...then ann said that the hair drop off from me...then the three of us -_-'''...we laugh and makes some jokes with it...after that when the new big pizza came,we put in a lot of cheese...the pizza itself already have a lot of cheese...so cheesy....we cant finished all but we manage to finish almost all la...haha...while taking my last pieces of pizza,they were discussing about wat to give jun wei for his birthday gift...then yan ni suggested that we should give her a big box of prawn since he likes to eat prawns...then not long after,ann shares her experinces in eating 'big long'prawns...we suspect she is taking aboout lobster but she said it's a prawn..in additional i did make some jokes with it until everyone laugh until stomach pain..hahaha....it rain quite heavily when we wanted to go to mrt station...i shared my raincoat with ann...wah,so romantic oh....haha...crazy le....
| a simple day. 4:12 PM
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