Sunday, October 31, 2004
even since that day,i asked myself alot of questions...making myself very confused...i rather i hurt myself than he hurt me...now we are still friends...it is better than we become enemies....though i still have the pain,i believe that it will slowly heal...sometimes being a friend is better than be lover...haha...i believe in fate again....if he is prepare and found what he is looking for,fate will bring us together again...do time actually tell??i really dont know but i believe in fate...if without fate,we wont have known each other.it is all up to fate to decide...no matter what, i trust and believe that he isnt as what pp have said....hope he can proof to me that....i should believe in myself... tomorrow i will have my biology exam...haha...i havent finish revising yet.....sure die de....pray that i can do well in all my exams...i dont want to take supplementary exam...i study for the sack of studying...i didnt have a very special interest in this course....i am happy as long as i pass...
| a simple day. 3:49 PM
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Thursday, October 28, 2004
this morning i had my sociology exam...20marks gone jus like that...problems comes right after another...some comes when the problem is still unsolve...one of the NNgroup member wasnt in...today she suddenly send a message to one of the NNgroup member saying that she doesnt want to be part of the NNgroup anymore...i was really shock when i knew that...two pp was quite angry(nearly end up to be a quarrel)...as for me,i dont know what to say coz since she has made the decision i cant stop her....i really wanted to know what happen between us??is there any misunderstanding between the 5of us???y does this happen???i dont know.....
being together with u,
i sense the feeling of togetherness that i never had before,
the feeling of togetherness needs two hands to clap,
nothing will produce if one hand keep clapping,
no matter how much i want to be with u,
you left me no choice but to let go,
let's give each other another chance to be friends again,
i believe when the time comes,
you will know what you are looking for,
if you believe in fade once again,
no matter how far we are,
no matter how long it takes,
we will still be together....
| a simple day. 4:08 PM
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Monday, October 25, 2004
i will be going back to my home country on the 6th of november....i really miss home...i planned to do many things when i am back there....i finally can play my favourite game'need for speed'..haha...finally can release stress....finally can take a good nice sleep....finally can eat the food there...finally can drink home cooked soup....finally can meet my friends and teachers in brunei...though some of my friends are having A-level examination but i am glad to be home....i can also get to see my dearest brother,tze hong....i miss him very much...i can go back play pool le...haha...not swimming pool oh...haha...i miss my sister...finally get to see my chubby,cute sister...i always play with her de...my home sweet home.....i get to cycle round my house and do some gardening with my mum....such a peaceful life there...but too bad it only last for 2wks....
don worry....when i am back to brunei,i will sure miss all of u guys(jmd)pp...and also the NNgroup...though next semenster,we wont be in the same sub-group le...our heart will always stay together as 1....i will especially miss some1 too....
| a simple day. 1:38 PM
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
today after school abt 3pm,we(nn group) and jun wei went to marina bay celebrated ann's 17th birthday....this is the 1st time i go there....there are so many food stall..before eating our dinner,ann there all went bowling....i sat there with wei wei and ming di.....we dont know how to play and not in a mood to learn too...haha...the 3of us jus cheer the rest....abt 6pm,we started to eat steamboat and bbq...each person $12...we can eat all we want....but i ate not much....the cutest thing are the food are inside the bowl of water b4 it is boil and also i saw andrew(ann's bf)eating the crab....haha...he has a hard time eating the crab....i went hm abt 8pm...after taking a bath,i started studying my sociology...i found that i really not paying attention at lecture....haha....abt 12midnite,my eyes cant take it le then i went to sleep.......
| a simple day. 11:30 PM
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
today i woke up at 8.30am thinking that there isnt any bio lecture at the morning but in the end i found out that there is....after that i am suppose to meet fio at 10am but she didnt turn up...i msg her few times and she didnt reply....i am supposed to eat lunch with dear at 11am but i suddenly recieved a msg saying that he cant make it...after that i asked him y and he said he got smth to do.........after that i didnt reply him........today is not my day.....no long after,i received a msg from fio saying that she overslept...i didnt reply her too...later in the afternoon,actually we planned to go jurong swimmming complex...at first,i dont feel like going coz i think of my studies but now i totally have no mood to go to lecture in the afternoon so even i go also no use.....now i am thinking should i go swimming???i asked myself,do i have the right to get angry with both of them with jus a small little thing like this????i basically hate pp who 'fly my aeroplane' and change of plan all of the sudden...
later that afternoon,we went swimming....we got bullied by few guys....they purposely turn over our float....after that,fio and i planned to took revenge by splashing them with water...haha...finally we did it but poor thing is lili lost his spec....we went back to find her spec but couldnt find....later that evening,after swimming,we accompanied lili to buy contact lens...she looks nicer with the contact lens....
to fio and dear ;i may not talk to u or reply ur msg for the whole day....after i get over with it,i will be ok le....jus get me time to cool down....
| a simple day. 10:43 AM
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Monday, October 18, 2004
i understand that u got hurt by him...but i wanted to let u know that i am the one who hurt the most if we break up....it is becoz the feeling develops to much a deeper stage...our relationship isnt as simple as u think we are....it's much more complicated than that....though we are together,we still not yet seems to understand each other....our relationship is not much different than as friends...now i as a gf felt very useless coz i dont know what's in his mind and sometimes found myself very annoying......i get crazy but asking myself many question....sometimes though i wanna call him up,i dont dare to.i am afraid that i maybe very annoying...sometimes i think of u.....to me,friends is always my first prority but when this problem comes...i am very confused...i asked myself;is it wrong to think more for friends than myself???if i think for my friend,how abt his feeling???i found myself very confused....actually i am much more confused than u do.....we need two hands to clap...if one hand always keep on clapping and the other not,the other hand will get tired and stop clapping....if the other hand arent clapping,no matter how much one hand is clapping,the other hand wont treassure it....it is of no use being together also.......i jus wanna let u know that i am the1 who hurt the most especially when the outcome isnt what i wan....but if it really is the outcome,i got to face the reality too...i cant avoid reality....
| a simple day. 2:19 PM
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Sunday, October 17, 2004
yesterday was a wonderful day...in the morning i met him at the woodlands mrt station then we went to ang mo kio to look for cakes....(actually it is for fio but i told fio that we celebrate his birthday together since during his birthday i wasnt here).we went to few cake shop...and finally we found 1....after that,we went popular to look for gifts...its all a last minute preparation...after that we went to watch 'resident evil'.it was really nice....i got frighten a few times.the thing i cant believe is there was only the two of us watching that movie...i admire the two girls in the movie...they are very courageous...after watching movie,while waiting for the cake,we went to slack at mc donald.....until abt 4pm,we took the train to pasir ris....all of us(girls)wore very formal...after that we went to fisherman village to celebrate fio birthday...on the way,something happened...(in which i cant tell)...only the few of us knew it.we ordered a lot of dishes...lili came late so she jus ate the crab and a plate of noodle..we ate 2crabs of black pepper crabs...very delicious...thanks fio for treating us...before we left,we sang happy birthday song to both of them and darling looks very surprise when we sang happy birthday song to him...we played with creams...haha...its very fun...after that we took the train hm...all of us are having fun yesterday.hope that this days will become the most memorable day for both of them...
| a simple day. 1:12 PM
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Thursday, October 14, 2004
tml is the deadline of my assignment....haiz...i got to re-do the whole thing again coz the format isnt correct....today i skipped one of my lecture coz i want to rush back home do my assignment if not i don have anymore time left....hope i can finish it b4 my sis comes back from work....tml,i am planning to go swimming....long time didnt go swimming le...after swimming,as usual,we will have practise at blk E....
| a simple day. 3:08 PM
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
yesterday we went to k-box at ang mo kio after school at 2pm...darling wear very formal...very bu shi kuan...look very mature..as for me,i wore long skirt...haha....cant imagine,rite???before going k-box,we ate at south canteen telling darling about what happen on sunday...i think he got a little bu suang when fio told him about the exchange number thingy...after that,it was ok leh after changing subject..we sang until 7pm...though i didnt sing much but darling chose a song that i knew how to sing....so no choice la...i sang...i found out that not learning chinese is a disadvantages....haiz....so sad..all of them are having a great time...though i spend alot yesterday,as long as every1 happy,i happy le....brendy joined us after 5pm..she sang jj's song...while they are singing,i tried to get some dance steps for my grading nxt mth...semenstral exam's coming le....every1 study hard oh....Ganbette!!
| a simple day. 11:49 AM
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Monday, October 11, 2004
yeesterday i went to orchard with fio and brendy...brendy is very excited to see jj...as for me and fio,we are jay's fans...haha....at first we dont have any ticket to enter but suddenly there is a girl asking us whether wan to join the jj fan club...we(fio and i)knew that brendy sure wan to join...as for us,we consider....suddenly we became a fan or jj....we become a fan of jj for the whole day....we all went crazy for the whole day....well,there is a group band from 'hai dia' singing on stage b4 jj came...there are 2guitarist and 2 vocals...they performed very well...we took pic with them..we already treat them as a singer le....they really performed very well...we even got their numbers....during that evening,there was a gathering with jj at x-square....haha...i cant image what we did...instead of getting interact with jj...we chat with one of the group band member,nick...we talked abt dance and singing thingy of 'hai dia'.haha....we played games with him too....he also got many fans....jus imagine how attractive he is.....haha...
| a simple day. 9:05 AM
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
today i had my ica presentation....we presented for 15min...the tutor wasnt satisfied with our presentation...we put in a lot of effort le....i think we have tried our best for the presentation....the tutor has a bad comments on our presentation....this is the 2nd tutor that thinks that our group is in-cooperative....i think our group should not have do things half way half way......and shouldnt do things very last minute...we should team up together and do the best that we can to show to other tutors that we are serious in our work rather than giving them the impression that we slack and play a lot....(To NN group:hope u all dont get offended in what i said).thats 1 point,we should keep in mind..as for the HS1036,it wasnt very tough...i finally knew my result for my bio....i passed...so happy....
| a simple day. 1:21 PM
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Wednesday, October 06, 2004
i have few best friends that i usually hang around with..it is called the NN group,which consist of me,ann,joanne,hannah and yan ni...before there was a quarrel between the two of them,we always joke abt and play abt...sometimes even go watch movie and go shopping together...though i dont really know what happen between the two of them,i can see that she is really upset....untill now there still dont talk to each other....being one of their friends,i dont know how to tell them not to be angry with each other....when i see them like this,i also confused...if they still continue like this,i wonder how are they going to communicate for the nxt 3yrs....later that afternoon,something happened to fio...she cried...she really wanted that guy to go for her birthday party celebration but the guy treats her very cool....she was very heart broken...later this evening,we all went s-11 to eat..and talk until abt 10pm..the following day,i got my ica presentation and test...hope i did well tml....
| a simple day. 9:47 AM
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Monday, October 04, 2004
i don wish to lost a friend jus bcoz of him.......i really don wish to lost a friend like u...have i make a wrong decision???i tot friendship can last forever????is it true that friendship can be forever no matter what happen?????what should i do????y cant we be like last time talking,chatting,eating lunch together,etc.....????y is it necessary for u to make such a decision???is that the only way to solve this problem???i don think avoiding is the only way to solve problem.......we really cant be friends anymore ma?????this is the 1st time i encounter such a problem and get so 'nan juo ren'...haiz.........what can i do???
| a simple day. 4:46 PM
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
today i was trying to avoid some1...i also dont know y...maybe i scare i will fall in love more deeply with him ba...haha...after jmd session(on the way to mrt station),i feel very uncomfortable when i saw him so close with another gal...haiz...its like that1 la...as usual.we all wen out to help him buy his formal shirt...he chose a formal shirt in which i think it is jus okla...i think he should buy it as long as he like it....hm...my mood totally changed when i and brendy abt to go hm...on the way,i felt very depress and feel like telling him watever is on my mind and watever i feel...after telling him that,i felt more comfortable and not that frustrated le...later that evening,he suddenly said something that i get a shock after receiving his msg...he said he actually have those feeling on me...then i ont know how to reply his msg...until later that nite,i call him up and he told me what he feel and there we begin.....really very happy to know that he got the feeling too...hope we understand each other much better and get along well...
| a simple day. 2:33 PM
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