Thursday, September 30, 2004
today it rains the whole day making me feel very sleepy...i cant believe i really slept during lecture...haha...nowadays i feel very stress and tired..always feel like wanted to sleep...and also there are many problems that is unslove...one of it is should i or should i not join singing session?haiz....i am afraid that i will get too stress with it.if i join singing session,i guess it will be very fun and enjoying de...i received a lot of stress from my parents and sis...so sometimes thats y i don feel like going hm so early....exams is jus round the corner...after exam,i can have a long holidays...i am jus wondering,will i be going back to brunei to visit all my friends there?long time i didnt see them le...really miss them alot....
| a simple day. 8:54 PM
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004
yeah...bio test is finally over le...so glad but i know i did badly coz i guess almost everything...the answer which i think is correct i jus shaded it...wah...steady leh...haha..i hope i can at least get a pass in my bio...yesterday i studied until i stress up and went to sleep very early...this morning i also very worried so switch on the radio in my radio to the loudest so that i don feel so stress...2day something happen...i saw my head and his friends at mc donald...his friends were standing jus behind joanne...joanne heard his friends said something in which she tot they were talking abt her...no long after,ann went to queue with joanne and then ann saw the guy very 'bu suang'...then when i went to dan table and said bye bye to him,ann came and asked the guy is he talking abt us from behind during the queue...then the guy said no...dan of course is on his friends side..i totally dont know waht to do...one is my head and the other is my friends...i stood there looking very blur and went off...after that i felt bad and no long after i called dan up and apologised for my friend...luckily,dan was in a good mood today..if not,i dont know how to face him during jmd lesson...i am really sori,dan....she doesnt meant to scold ur friend or anything...i think everything is jus a misunderstanding...
| a simple day. 3:25 PM
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004
2day then i realised that i will have my assessment(practical)exam nxt wk....wah lau.i have many assignment that i havent even touch yet.one of it is my communication skill...we are require to write 1200 word with minimum of 3references...if no references is requied then it is much better coz i can jus write whatever is in my mind....the other thing that i am stress abt is my semenstal exam...it is jus round the corner...i am also stress abt the grading in my cca.i got to think of 64steps....i didnt even have any idea....i think i am having a great day today coz yesterday i have a great time talking to some1 who can cheer me up...haha...u know who u are...actually my main motif is to help him release his stressness but in return he helps me release mine...anyway,thanks alot.. to everyone,hope u all have a happy moon cake festival...
| a simple day. 5:09 PM
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Monday, September 27, 2004
it has being quite a few days i didnt write my blog..when i was at the hospital for attachment i realise 1 thing...a person can have a hundred reason to live but no reason to die..last few days i had a veyr bad heachache so jus after i worked i went back home sleep..i looked very blur..i think its becoz i didint get enough sleep..
the following morning i took a bath and hang up my uniform..when i hang up my uniform,my watch suddenly came out of the pocket ofthe uniform and dropped into the toilet hole...so sad.i brought the watch on the 1st day of the attachment and lost it during the last day ;(.on the day itself(afternoon),i went back to school for another practise session on the dance we learn last wk...i dance and dance and dance without realising that i am hungry...when i went down to the north canteen to look for some snacks to eat...i lost my appetite..i feel like vomitting..as a result,i brought watermelon juice..after that,we went to ang mo kio to eat...i brought a porridge but when i reached ang mo kio mrt station,i vomitted some of it...my stomach was very painful at that time...i think my gastric came back le...when i reached home(after taking shower),i slept till the nxt day.i dont dare tell my sis abt it coz i dont want her to worry..
the nxt day got jmd practise and we went to leon's house...in the morning i still dont have much appetite but better than yesterday.after the jmd practise,we went ang mo kio played arcade..so cool.long time i didnt play arcade le...after playing arcade,we went ang mo kio shop around and we go eat mc donald...i started to have my appetite back..so happy coz my appetite came back the right time..abt 6.45pm,we met leon and other at mrt station...i never expect his house was so inside...after reaching his house,brendy and i were deciding to stay over at leon's house..we all chit chat and eat at the same time..it is really enjoying.no long after i got a call from my parents,they knew i went for bbq but when i told them i am staying over,they toned up their voice and said'i send u to singapore is to study not enjoy...i can anyhow stop u from studying at nyp..'and nag nag nag again.i feel really stress by her words...so my mood suddenly changed..but after that,we wen inside leon's house,i felt much better coz they all joke around and we get to play ps...the next morning,every1 looks very tired coz we slept very late.. the folowing day(sunday),we eat breakfast together and i feel very 'sing fu' coz eating together with them is jus like eating together with our family..each of us wen hm later that afternoon..all look very tired...when i reach hm,i am tired and taking a nag till my sis came back from work....she come back nag at me again(as usual).well,there is one day i wen back to school after i worked and she said 'go back school for wat?"then i don know how to answer her...if i tell her i go school do research,she sure say cannot do research at hm ma...well actually,i wen to school coz i don wan to feel so stress....haiz....i am really stress by my parents and my sis...wat can i do?they wan me to jus stay at hm study study study..STRESS AH!!!u know what pp said abt me..'u always think abt others but think less for urself and as a result u stress up urself'..
| a simple day. 2:31 PM
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Tuesday, September 21, 2004
nowadays many things happened...some are good and some are bad.mostly on bad...last sunday i got angry with some1.actually i am quite disappointed with him but after he explained evrything,i realised that i shouldnt have get angry with him..i understand that it is difficult for him to seperate himself into two...in the end i found out that the other friend is moody and feel down..she need to talk to some1 who she can trust.i would like to apologize for getting angry with him....i knew that i am abit 'chong tong'.i am sori...i found out that there are few flowers surrounding a bee...i have such a weird feeling when other prettier flower get close to him...obviously,there are some flowers that are prettier than the 'red rose'.i keep on wondering,which flower will the bee go to?will the 'red rose' be the 1st to die?haiz....very frustrated...i think i should believe that the bee and the flowers are good friends..not more than that...2day,i woke up very late and is almost late to work...i rush over to nuh and i was 5min late..2day i looked very moody and give those long faces...and my lecturer said i should 'smile' and dont look so serious...then after that i am wondering,how can i not be so serious coz all the nurses there look VERY serious and not like those nurses in the polyclinic..i still have few more days and i finish my attachment...nxt wk i got bio exam...i havent finish study yet...no mood to study....i sure fail de....
| a simple day. 5:07 PM
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Saturday, September 18, 2004
today i am super hardworking...u know y?actually when i am working from 7am to 3am,i will usually have my lunch break from 11am to 12am.jus now after abt 11am,my friends(those going for the 1st break)had a meeting with the lecturer.i wasnt involved in the meeting so i stay till my friend finished their meeting...after that then i realise that our break is only till 12am..all the while i was busy taking the parameters for the patient in my cubicle until 11.45am.i quickly rush down to the canteen to buy chocolate roll..i only had my break for 10min..poor leg...i have been standing for almost whole day.when i am abt to off duty,i am so so happy coz finally tml is saturday...tml jmd practise isnt inside a room..we will be practising outside(i heard from brendy).after that we go to jurong for swimming..yahoo...but too bad..i cant go into the pool..nvmla...i am happy when i get to see water.hope we will have a great time tml..
| a simple day. 8:15 AM
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Friday, September 17, 2004
last wk i was wondering how will be my attachment to hospital but now one wk has passed..so fast...i kinda enjoyed my work but when i think of the assignment..i get headache..well..today i worked from 7-3pm..so tiring..got to wake up at 5am..i nearly overslept today..i was planning to catch the 1st train but in the end turn up to taking the 2nd train..after i left home then i realised that i forget to do 1 thing...i forget to adjust the alarm clock to 8am(brendy asked me to adjust)...hehe..sori brendy..last few days i am so moody coz when i entered the ward i saw all those elderly which is about 70 to 90yrs of age,it reminds me of my grandma in brunei...i really miss her a lot...i miss the time when i go shopping and chit chattting wiith her...she understands me more than my mum...po po,i miss u alot...and also i miss all my close friends in brunei and also jmd friends...
hm....abt jmd,i wanted to said a special thanks to some1 who asked me to join jmd.without her,i think i wouldnt be as happy as today..jmd really gives me alot of wonderful memories..from the first day i joined jmd,i found it very interesting though i only went there for abt less than an hr...i feel so fortunate to have pp like ari,wendy,fio,brendy and those u are quite close to me...they gave me the feeling that i am not alone in the darkness..i really wanted to say 'nice knowing u all as a friend'.hope this can be a true friendship that last forever.
| a simple day. 8:58 AM
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Monday, September 13, 2004
yeaterday finally got jmd practise le...haha..so happy.i learned alot of things..afetr the practise ssession,we learned how to dance'dance with me tonite' and few of the hip hop steps...i am getting more and more interested in learning it.i realised that i should be expressing myself more...later in the afternoon,i went sentosa with few of my jmd friends...they were only 1 guy among 6 of us...we were having a great time..we played some games..one of the games,i aklways lose coz i have a poor memory...hm...i wonder how i pass my exam with such a poor memory..the other is truth and dare..we got to know some personal info from each of them..hehe.each of us got to do the dare too...the dare was horrible too.all of us 'siaw siaw'one...jus cant imagine how crazy we were taht evenining...though it was kinda tiring after we float for abt 2hrs at the beach but we really enjoy ourselves.
| a simple day. 12:15 PM
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
today is the last day of my attachment...so happy..and is looking forward to go have jmd practise...we havent had any jmd practise for 2wks le...realy miss jmd very much.these 2wks passed VERY slow..Every day i miss school coz the food there are nice and also miss the laughter i have will the NN group..haha.NN group are 5of my so call close friends in singapore.we all usually hang about together..5of us very funny one...nxt wk will be my attachment wk to hospital...i wonder how would my life be there..there is one day i work from 1-9pm and the following day 7-3pm..jus only abt 5 hrs of sleep...i basically start to like nursing le..but whrn i comes to theory...i hate it.today i did dressing for one of the patient...i kinda feel bad for the patient coz i did it wrongly but i am glad the staff nurse there allows me to do it...at least i can learn from my mistake and learn some other skills from her...;).
| a simple day. 7:40 AM
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
today i am basically waiting for the time to past...i found out that during the morning,the time passes real slow...i almost sit the whole day but i did learn something...i learn how to take weight and height for the patient....and also learn how to makes appointment with other hospitals...so cool,rite?i got to see how the nurses get angry with the patient...all the nurses in there are very friendly...they try their level best to teach us something...every morning i will have a talk by one of the staff nurse on different topics...early in the morning having a talk really hypnotise to sleep jus like having lecture at school...haha....
| a simple day. 11:01 AM
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
today as i woke up,i have no mood le...i feel very tired and sleepy.today,eventually,i did nth at the polyclinic except for listening and observing what the nurses did..after less than an hour,i started to day dream le...dream abt my prince charming..haha..jus kidding.well,i am thinking of something but i don know what i am thinking abt...haha...don knowla..2day very very no mood to do things..very frustrated..U need no reason to like a person..When u like some1 with a reason,that isnt call love...haiz....don know what i am writingla..so stupid.....by the way,i cant wait for the next jmd session...i miss jmd very much..
| a simple day. 9:18 AM
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
my day today was kind of enjoying coz i got to learn new thing from the polyclinic....though b4 i started my job,i am kinda blur and sleepy but after getting to know wat exactly do they did in the clinic,i started to get interested to learn more.tomorow i will be assign to do different things,so far i enjoy what i am doing....yesterday i think and think and think..of many question..but in the end,it end up with no answer...i read a story of bee and flower...after reading the story,i am wondering that should that flower still be waiting for the bee since the flower knew the ending le?
| a simple day. 9:00 AM
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
today then i knew that my friend and i like e same guy...after we knew that,we were discussing on who shoukd be the first to step out...both of us dislike to take things that doesnt belong to us...on that night itself,that particular guy ccame over to join us at the STDC show..when i saw them sitting together i got a little heart broken..don know y...though i myself knew that i like this guy,i said/do things that tries to pull them together...i am quite upset becoz' trying to pull them together isnt wat i wan to do...though,that wasnt the ending i want....it is kind of stupid to do such a thibg,rite?i never expect that the girl will tell him on the day itself...after that guy knew it,hw was very surprise.Though he didnt reject us directly but we know what he mean...after i got to know the answer from him,i was not really hurt by him coz i already knew his answer b4 that.no long after we reach home,we chit chat on the phone for abt an hr and talk watever that is on our mind...we believe that 'time can prove everything' and'it's all up to fate that decide who to be with'.ok...now the problem is solved..now that guy and i are now good friends..surprisingly,this problem comes and goes the day itself....if the ending were,the guy choose the friend of mine,i will bless them with hapiness...A message for that guy is i still need more time to really get to understand u even more better...
| a simple day. 8:59 PM
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Saturday, September 04, 2004
today is a wonderful day for me coz i called up my friends at brunei...i really miss them very much..i cant wait to go back..i am really tired of rushing train,exam,studying and many things.i like my peaceful life there.1thing that makes me really happy is that i get to talk to my dearest bro...though he always said 'calling from singapore is very expensive"'.he is the1 i enjoy talking too....he makes me smile whenever i heard his sweet and lovely voice..when i talked to him,all my problem that is inside my mind becomes a no problem...hehe...i think it is really worst having a bro like him...he can really makes me the whole day..i think its worth calling him all the way from singapore...
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| a simple day. 8:00 AM
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
i am having my break this whole wk.how am i going to spend my days b4 the attachment?whatever i planned turn out to be different thing.like today,i planned to do my hw at home but turn out to be at school doing nth....i wonder why it seems like everything have change since i came to singapore...the only time when i enjoy my life here in singapore is when there is jmd practice...jmd brighten up my life and makes me feel that life can be very enjoyable..i am having a great time with the pp at jmd...the only sad thing abt jmd is that jae left...jae is a really cute guy...he has a multi characteristic character.he can be very serious at time and can be very naughty..as for our head,he is a fun guy if his mood is extremely good.if his mood is down,even i am afraid to go near him...the cutest pp in jmd is ari.she likes to joke around...she is all time wearing a smile on her face.i never see her get frust up b4...Getting to know all of the pp at jmd is my precious gift....
| a simple day. 4:30 AM
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